The Story of my Life

Been having paranoia attacks again. I know I have absolutely no reason to question, to doubt or whatever, naghahanap lang talaga ako ng sakit ng katawan. I don't want to ruin what I have now so starting today, I promise myself...

If you've been following my blog ever since, you would know how much I despise meeting up with relatives and friends because of how much they ask me if I have a boyfriend and my marriage plans. Now that I am with someone, I thought that would silence them down or would, at the very least, be happy for me.

Last weekend, Jerome went with me to Batangas to visit mom and, of course, to meet the Dad. His meeting with Dade was far from what I expected. I was expecting a cold treatment from him. I could imagine his face, expressionless, and nodding at the sight of Jerome. Indeed, he nodded when I introduced him. But when he walked us to the gate, he said "Mahalin mo ang anak ko ha. Nag-iisa lang yan." Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining. It was, in fact, heartwarming. But, it sounded like he was giving me away. De, boypren pa lang...di po namamanhikan. Hokey?!

Then he met Lola, my mom's mom. My groovy lola casually said "Sus. Iba nanaman. Tapos di nanaman magtatagal." (THOUGHT BALLOON: Dear Earth, please eat me alive. Now na.) I was shocked so I just laughed to make the situation lighter, not for Jom but for me. Even my aunt could not believe what she just heard. Haaayyy...Sorry lalakero kasi. hahaha

At the cemetery, while chatting with my cousin about her family, she suddenly pops the question...Kayo, kailan kayo magpapakasal?! (THOUGHT BALLOON: Manahimik ka kung hindi sasabunutan kita!) I just flashed my eyes at her to make her stop. Tama bang i-pressure?!

I know my family meant well. It's just that, I think some things should have been left unsaid for now. I was caught off guard. I feel embarrassed. Good thing Jom was every bit of a gentleman. He just smiles and answers politely to questions that are answerable by yes or no. The last thing I want is to see him running away due to pressure...So far, he hasn't started running.