The Story of my Life

"If I could wish for my life to be perfect,
it would be tempting, but I would have to decline,
for life would no longer teach me anything..."

2:22 PM

M.I.A.

Posted by Claire |

One busy Friday morning at work:

Email subject: Mr. X's chair

Dear All,
Please let me know if you borrowed Mr. X's small
chair. It disappeared
from his room.

Staff A

Replies were:

Staff B: Sinong nag-uwi? Umamin na!
Staff C: Sorry hindi ko kayang iakyat sa MRT.
Staff B: Sa bank car kasya!
Staff D: Baka hindi lang niya napansin at inuupuan pala nya.
Staff E: Mwahahaha...Kakatawa naman iyun! Sa 'small' ng chair at sa laki nya, baka nga!

Email subject: The Case of the Missiong Chair SOLVED!
Nahanap ko na po yung "small" chair. Nayupi pala sa ilalim ng table
nya. Di nya napansin. May extra chair pala sa cluster nina Ms.
Y. Probably nakalimutan ibalik ng mga cleaners after they cleaned his
room.

Staff C: Hay naku Staff A, ang silya naglakad papunta kila Y dahil hindi na niya kaya ang torture pag umuupo si Mr. X.

11:29 AM

Today's Horoscope

Posted by Claire |

Horoscope is defined as an astrologer’s description of an individual’s personality and future based on the position of the planets in relation to the sign of the zodiac under which the person was born. Find your sign and read your horoscope:

Capricorn
On Love: Mahirap talagang makipag-break
On Money: May darating ililibre ka sa labas
On Career: Patayin ang aircon at buksan ang bintana

Aquarius
On Love: Hay naku, di ka talaga marunong huminde
On Money: Magkakalimutan na naman sa bayaran
On Career: Masasatisfy mo silang lahat

Pisces
On Love: Nakikiliti sya kapag binubulungan mo
On Money: Sa susunod, huwag na humawak ng pera
On Career: Basta tawagin mo lang sir, masaya na `yon

Aries
On Love: Totoo diba, breast milk is best for babies
On Money: Lahat ng pusta mo matatalo
On Career: Bagal mo kasi, huli ka sa linya tuloy

Taurus
On Love: Kumaway kung kinawayan ka
On Money: Maghanap naman ng sinehang mura
On Career: Bukas ka na lang maglaba

Gemini
On Love: Bilib ka masyado sa napapanood mo
On Money: Barkada mo saksakan pala ng yaman
On Career: Hindi nila ma-gets pagpapaliwanag mo

Cancer
On Love: Vegetarian sya, ikaw di kumakain ng gulay
On Money: Kapag humingi, bigyan mo ng konti
On Career: Kasundo mo ang lahat ng mga magkaaway

Leo
On Love: Tatandang dalaga kung parating masungit
On Money: Mas magastos mag-renta
On Career: Mas alam mo pangangailangan mo

Virgo
On Love: Break na kayo kaya masaya ka na
On Money: Tanggapin ang sukling keyndi
On Career: Kahit nag-ko-compete kayo dapat friendly

Libra
On Love: Di ka na naawa, parati mong niloloko
On Money: Pera lang naman ang nawala pero araaaayyy!
On Career: Karamihan ng problema di nagtatagal

Scorpio
On Love: Hindi na sya naniniwala kay Santa
On Money: Bumili ng bagong antique
On Career: Ibang mundo ang napasukan mo

Sagittarius
On Love: Anghel sya, sinuka nga lang ng langit
On Money: Puro P100 iluluwa nag ATM para sa yo
On Career: Kahit anong gawin huwag matulog

Bwahahahaha...Hope it made your day!

4:24 PM

Killing time

Posted by Claire |

You Are a Good Student of Men
You're pretty good at knowing what men are thinking
But you're not dead on 100% of the time
Let your guy off the hook sometimes... because you may be reading him all wrong!





You Aren't In the Best Of Moods



While you aren't full on depressed, things aren't going your way.

You may be hurt, angry, frustrated... or all three.

Not to worry - you'll be feeling fine in no time.



You Have Your Sarcastic Moments

While you're not sarcastic at all times, you definitely have a cynical edge.
In your opinion, not all people are annoying. Some are dead!
And although you do have your genuine moments, you can't help getting your zingers in.
Some people might be a little hurt by your sarcasm, but it's more likely they think you're hilarious.

2:15 PM

Friday's feast

Posted by Claire |

Appetizer
What is your favorite kind of pie?
I'm not a pie person. Does pizza pie count? hehehe

Soup
Name something that made you smile this week.
My officemate showed me her recent buy from Toy Kindom. She knows I'm into stuffed toys (I have a collection of beany bear from McDonalds, one of those is from her) and wanted to make me envious. She succeeded. But she, and one more officemate, ended up buying one for me too. I find that really sweet. :-) It made me happy for one whole day.

Salad
What do you do to cool off when the weather is hot and humid?
I take a shower. Drink. Watch a movie. I hit the beach!

Main Course
You receive $1,000 in the mail with a letter that says you can only use the money to redecorate one room in your home. Which room do you pick, and what do you buy to spruce it up?
The Living room. Last year, I had our kitchen renovated. My target this year is the living room, that is if I have the moola to do it. For the purpose of this feast, I'd still want to redesign our living room. I want to get a black leather sofa with silver framing. I want to put more lights. Cover one wall with a huge mirror to make it look bigger. I want a new set of curtains to go with the couch. I want to fill one wall of family pictures.

Dessert
Fill in the blank: My ____________ says _____________, but _____________.

My mind says I should work, but the rain is really hard and we've been told that we can go home.

10:31 AM

Yackety-Yaking

Posted by Claire |

This month is usually the start of our busy days at work. Everyone wants to get their project approved, which, to us, translates to overnight work. 7:00 p.m. is the new 5:00 p.m. The office is filled with people on a weekend. It's bunching. People are cramming. Loan agreements, project agreements, missions, and the best part of all....a heap of papers to file!

But this year, we're halfway through August and all I do is slack around, blog, download badminton videos, browse through my fav sites, take pictures, chat, sit here and pretend to be busy. I am getting tired of it. hehehehe...Believe me, it's tiring. As they say, ang hirap magpanggap!

So, pardon me for this senseless piece. I'm pretending to be busy and I need you to help me.

10:51 AM

And you shall be called HONEY

Posted by Claire |

Did I tell you that I love surprises? If not, hear me...I LOVE SURPRISES. Grand or otherwise, I just love surprises. It makes me happy.

Yesterday, I've been bugging my office pals to give me that big-eyed creature. And after much negotiation and paglalambing, they agreed to get me one as birthday and Christmas gift. I don't mind. Hehehe. Mababaw lang ako.

This morning, I found that cuddly creature on my desk............with crap! Hahahaha...Now that's a silly surprise. I love you guys. You made me happy today. *blushes*


2:36 PM

Birthday Wishes

Posted by Claire |

I forgot to mention, this photo was taken by Dyosa. Thanks Dyosa!


This cute toy is one of the many things I want for my birthday. And I want it NOW.


Dear Lord, please make the rain stop so C and G can get my toy at Toy Kingdom. Puhlease...puhlease...

12:02 PM

b*tchin' on men

Posted by Claire |

I'm so in the mood to bitch around today, had an early stint with someone in the chat room. He disappeared when he knew I was warming up.

Once in a while I get this Gabriela instict in me that I want to smack men who think they're superior to women. Call me Gabriela Silang or whatever, but I just hate the fact that they think they can pull the wool over women, to me most of all. I've been fooled before which is precisely the reason why I'm so cheesed off when I meet men who think they can pull it on me again, and get away with it. *raises eyebrow and flips hair*

It's amazing how they can be loving and caring one day, then a complete jerk the next day. *sigh* I can be both too you know. But if I bitch on you at the start, I'll bitch on you the rest of the time. If I'm nice to you, I'm nice to you. Period. There's got to be some consistency! If you're an a*s, then you're an a*s. Period. (I like that period thing). I'm going in circles. Hahaha. There's just so many words coming out of my head about men.

Enough said. Enough ranting. Time to work.

4:34 PM

New look

Posted by Claire |

After several attempts to update my blogskin, I finally found the one that suits my preference. This one has all the components I want in a template: comments page, a title for each entry, a unique page for each post and a menu bar that accommodates all that I want to put in.

Thanks to BlogSkins!!!!

5:47 PM

PIMPING AT PIEDRA

Posted by Claire |

Our English friend, Lucy, who's a bartender-slash-cousin of the owner, is back from a month(?)-long vacation. She wanted to meet up with friends so she invited everyone to Piedra for some drinking (on a rainy wednesday night). At Piedra, Lucy's cousin, a 15-yr-old, needed someone to show off to his sister. He needs money, and in exchange of that he needs to prove that he and his friends met girls in the bar. Lucy used to think I was 12 because I'm too small and skinny. Therefore, she saw me as the best candidate for the part. I didn't have to do anything. I just have to smile and shake her hand. So I agreed. As we walk to meet her sister, this teenager held my hand as if to show that "hey, we're together". It felt like I was molesting him so I let go. After the small talk with his sister, Iasked him again why he's doing this. He said: "My girlfriend is in Embassy waiting for me. She always pays the bill for us. Tonight I promised her that I'll pay. But I spent all my money on these shoes (points to his white sneakers). So I need my sister's money to pay off our bill." Kids stuff.

The deal is $50 for three girls.

5:25 PM

PUTTING THE PIECES TOGETHER

Posted by Claire |

I was going through my past posts and found this as draft. Never had the chance to publish it. I think it's worth posting. Sayang naman ang effort ko. hehehe. Wrote this sometime in 2005, a few months after my last "real" relationship. Medyo sad but uplifting for me. Read on...

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When I read the review of Before Sunset, I was thrilled that I knew this movie will be comparable to the Notebook. Their thoughts about relationships were right. It's heartwarming to see two individuals, who felt strongly for each other, get back together after several years (was it 9 years?) of being apart. Somehow, you become hopeful of broken relationships. It would be nice to get back with the one you've always loved, the one you believe you're meant for. But, only and only if, there are no complications. Okay enough of this. Am not a here to critique the film.

I only want to share my thoughts on a particular part of the movie...

The conversation in the van is reminiscent of my past. When Celine (Julie Delpy) uttered her frustrations to Jesse (Ethan Hawke) why her ex-boyfriends get into serious relationships after breaking-up with her and how they turnout to be good partners when during her time, they were cruel, rude, lousy, ill-mannered, boring, selfish, immature (hehehe...okay. she didn't really mentioned those...inexaggerate ko lang, to fit me sentiments. =)

Yes, we have the same frustrations. After watching the film, it occurred to me that most of my exes, if not married, are in a serious relationship...and they found their true love right after me. So I asked a friend, is something wrong with me? Is this my curse? Why do I have to meet them at that bad part of their lives...why didn't I meet the grown-up man they all turned out to be?

Here goes the drama queen...

While at that thought, there was a tiny part in me that's envious of the women they ended up with. Not that I'd still want to be with these men. But because they didn't get hurt as much as I did while loving them. Because when she met him, he already knew the real meaning of LOVE.

After each relationship, they leave me shattered. Depressed. Lost. Hurt. I ask questions, I find meaning and reason in everything that happened. I rationalize things. I pick-up the pieces and move on. I forgive. Each person who walks out of my life teaches me something. I'm like a puzzle with a few missing pieces. Each person holds that missing piece and when he walks out, he leaves it but not in the spot where it should belong. They leave me to figure out its right spot. Then I begin to appreciate the figure that was completed by that missing piece.

It's a long and tiring process, particularly if you've been in and out of 7 relationships. But most of them, if not all, left me with something worth remembering. It made me the person that I am now. Less susceptible to superficial love. I realized, I was loving them too much for them to handle, too much that leaves me with nothing for myself. I make them my life. I compromise my values. I compromise my beliefs. I compromise too much. The more you give, the more receptive you are to pain.

At one point, I regret having met these people. I regret the decisions I made hastily. But seeing the puzzle complete made me appreciate the pain and sacrifices I had to suffer. The questions are few and the bouts with Misery-the-Bitch happens every so often (actually only as PMS). Life is better.

4:18 PM

LIFE'S CONTRADICTIONS

Posted by Claire |

Realize that life is indeed full of contradictions. Sometimes it's crazy to be sane. You need to fall to fly. People suffer because you care. You have to learn to know the lesson. You have to give up because you are strong. You have to be wrong to make things right. Nonetheless, life's complexities are also life's source of beauty. We should cry to laugh again, fall apart to be whole again, and get hurt to love again.

10:21 AM

BECAUSE I LOVE YOU

Posted by Claire |

I don't remember who brought it up, but all of a sudden Mon, Flow, Jom and I started talking about silly things we did in our previous relationships. Things that when you are younger, your friends think it is the sweetest thing you can do for your other half.

I used to write on chocolate wrappers and perfume boxes. I also wrote on foil wrappers and tissue papers. I felt more creative one time and wrote on a small piece of paper which I inserted in a cigarette wrapper ( I took out the tobacco with a pin, left the cig butt and slided the piece of paper where the tobacco used to be). As an alternative, I inserted that piece of paper into a vial and tied a ribbon around it to make it more presentable. One time, because I felt my overflowing love for this person, I filled one roll of cashier receipts with reasons why I love him.

I don't think I would ever think of doing the same things for my (future) boyfriend. Not because I would love him less or that I loved the first one better than him, but because now, I believe there are more ways of expressing our love for one person ---ways that are far greater than what a piece of paper can reveal.

Gaazzzz...I miss having a boypren. hehehe

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