The Story of my Life

Men, as explained by Jerome, appreciate a song for their melody or music and less of the lyrics. So whenever I tell him I have a song for him, his initial reaction is "sounds good" followed by "what does it mean?"

The other day, he said, he found a nice song that we can use for the wedding, maybe after the you-may-now-kiss-the-bride part. I didn't think the lyrics meant special to him until last night, when I was teasing him how much he loved taking my picture even when we were still friends. He said he loves the way I smile (aaaawwww...kilig!!!! hahaha), thus the song:

Minamasdan kita
Nang hindi mo alam
Pinapangarap kong ikaw ay akin
Mapupulang labi
At matinkad mong ngiti
Umaabot hanggang sa langit
Huwag ka lang titingin sa akin
At baka matunaw ang puso kong sabik

[Chorus]Sa iyong ngiti ako'y nahuhumaling
At sa tuwing ikaw ay gagalaw
Ang mundo ko'y tumitigil
Para lang sayo
Ang awit ng aking puso
Sana'y mapansin mo rin
Ang lihim kong pagtingin

Minamahal kita ng di mo alam
Huwag ka sanang magagalit
Tinamaan yata talaga ang aking puso
Na dati akala ko'y manhid
Hindi pa rin makalapit
Inuunahan ng kaba sa aking dibdib

[Chorus]Sa iyong ngiti ako'y nahuhumaling
At sa tuwing ikaw ay lalapit
Ang mundo ko'y tumitigil
Ang pangalan mo sinisigaw ng puso
Sana'y madama mo rin
Ang lihim kong pagtingin

Sa iyong ngiti ako'y nahuhumaling(Sa iyong ngiti)
Sa tuwing ikaw ay gagalaw
Ang mundo ko'y tumitigil
Para lang sa'yo... (Para lang sa'yo ang awit ng aking puso)
Sana ay mapansin mo rin... Ang lihim kong pagtingin
Sa iyong ngiti...

WARNING: EMO MODE SWITCHED ON

I'm nearing the end of my calendar days. In a few days, I'll be 29. When that day comes, I know I will receive greetings from friends, relatives and even acquaintances. Alongside these greetings are questions about my personal life and plans of marriage, worries about my ovary and how my biological clock is catching up on me. On that day, please keep these worries to yourself and let me celebrate adulthood worry-free. I am 29, I believe I have heard all that and I don't need to be reminded of them yet again.

But if you're really wondering why I haven't jumped into the bandwagon, or at the very least why I'm not in a serious relationship, allow me to feed your curious mind. (I'm after your boyfriend or husband. Mwahahahaha...Kidding!) The answer is pretty simple: I'm holding out for THE ONE. Of course, I've dated quite a few. But none of them has given that magical feeling or had me curling up cause I had butterflies in my stomach. Nor has anyone made me say YES, without a doubt, without questions.

I don't want to settle. Primarily because I know what I'm capable of doing when I'm not 100% with a guy. I don't want to be with a so-so guy because I want someone who rocks my world. Someone who makes me incredibly and undeniably happy. Someone I can live without but wouldn't want to. Someone who would always want to sit beside me because he always wants to stay close to me. And until I find the person that makes me smile up to my third molar, I will not wear that white dress. Understood?!

Sure I miss being with someone. But if it were merely for the sake of having someone to go with you to your friend's wedding, or to pick you up after a night of partying with girlfriends, or to bring you to your badminton game, and all other perks - I would not be wasting my time, nor the poor guy's time and effort.

I'm holding out for The One. I don't care if I'm 35 or 50. Yes the clock is ticking, and so what? Let it tick...until it freakin' breaks!

You Are a Good Student of Men

You're pretty good at knowing what men are thinking But you're not dead on 100% of the time Let your guy off the hook sometimes... because you may be reading him all wrong!

You Aren't In the Best Of Moods

While you aren't full on depressed, things aren't going your way. You may be hurt, angry, frustrated... or all three. Not to worry - you'll be feeling fine in no time.

You Have Your Sarcastic Moments

While you're not sarcastic at all times, you definitely have a cynical edge. In your opinion, not all people are annoying. Some are dead! And although you do have your genuine moments, you can't help getting your zingers in. Some people might be a little hurt by your sarcasm, but it's more likely they think you're hilarious.

I'm so in the mood to bitch around today, had an early stint with someone in the chat room. He disappeared when he knew I was warming up.

Once in a while I get this Gabriela instict in me that I want to smack men who think they're superior to women. Call me Gabriela Silang or whatever, but I just hate the fact that they think they can pull the wool over women, to me most of all. I've been fooled before which is precisely the reason why I'm so cheesed off when I meet men who think they can pull it on me again, and get away with it. *raises eyebrow and flips hair*

It's amazing how they can be loving and caring one day, then a complete jerk the next day. *sigh* I can be both too you know. But if I bitch on you at the start, I'll bitch on you the rest of the time. If I'm nice to you, I'm nice to you. Period. There's got to be some consistency! If you're an a*s, then you're an a*s. Period. (I like that period thing). I'm going in circles. Hahaha. There's just so many words coming out of my head about men.

Enough said. Enough ranting. Time to work.