The Story of my Life

Been having paranoia attacks again. I know I have absolutely no reason to question, to doubt or whatever, naghahanap lang talaga ako ng sakit ng katawan. I don't want to ruin what I have now so starting today, I promise myself...

If you've been following my blog ever since, you would know how much I despise meeting up with relatives and friends because of how much they ask me if I have a boyfriend and my marriage plans. Now that I am with someone, I thought that would silence them down or would, at the very least, be happy for me.

Last weekend, Jerome went with me to Batangas to visit mom and, of course, to meet the Dad. His meeting with Dade was far from what I expected. I was expecting a cold treatment from him. I could imagine his face, expressionless, and nodding at the sight of Jerome. Indeed, he nodded when I introduced him. But when he walked us to the gate, he said "Mahalin mo ang anak ko ha. Nag-iisa lang yan." Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining. It was, in fact, heartwarming. But, it sounded like he was giving me away. De, boypren pa lang...di po namamanhikan. Hokey?!

Then he met Lola, my mom's mom. My groovy lola casually said "Sus. Iba nanaman. Tapos di nanaman magtatagal." (THOUGHT BALLOON: Dear Earth, please eat me alive. Now na.) I was shocked so I just laughed to make the situation lighter, not for Jom but for me. Even my aunt could not believe what she just heard. Haaayyy...Sorry lalakero kasi. hahaha

At the cemetery, while chatting with my cousin about her family, she suddenly pops the question...Kayo, kailan kayo magpapakasal?! (THOUGHT BALLOON: Manahimik ka kung hindi sasabunutan kita!) I just flashed my eyes at her to make her stop. Tama bang i-pressure?!

I know my family meant well. It's just that, I think some things should have been left unsaid for now. I was caught off guard. I feel embarrassed. Good thing Jom was every bit of a gentleman. He just smiles and answers politely to questions that are answerable by yes or no. The last thing I want is to see him running away due to pressure...So far, he hasn't started running.

For the past couple of months, I’ve been watching things unfold. Living each day as they come. Cherishing each moment. Embracing it. It felt like the universe conspired to bring us together. Everything felt so right. I’ve waited so long for this and I can’t let it slip away. So I seized it.

I’m extremely happy and I want everyone to know. I love this man and I will do everything to make this work.

One day I asked God a bunch of beautiful flowers,
but, instead, He gave me a cactus with thorns.

Later, I asked Him to give me butterflies,
but, instead, He gave me worms.

I was disappointed and I wept.
But, few days after, I have noticed that the cactus
bloomed with beautiful flowers,
and the worms soon became butterflies.

God wants us to wait for the right time,
for He knows all the best that He can give.

SPOILER ALERT!!!!

Though I'm not a Neil Gaiman fan, I was still excited to see Stardust. I've heard good reviews about Neil Gaiman so I assumed the movie would be spectacular as the book itself. Plus, I think I read somewhere that the novel was very well translated to a movie. All that made me thrilled to see the film. Not enough reason no? hehehe

My expectations were totally different from what I've seen. I was looking forward to an LOTR and HP type of adventure film! A serious type. One that would make you cover your face because you're afraid of what might happen, or the type that would make your adrenal gland pumping. Na-ah...not the type. This film will make you laugh until your jaw and tummy hurts. It was hilarious! A feel-good movie. You'd be surprised at what characters the actors played and I must say, they did well! Bravo! Bravo!

A quotable quote from the film...

Yvaine professing her true feelings to Tristan, who's been transformed as a mouse by that wicked witch.

"You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate...It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves...You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and...What I'm trying to say, Tristan is...I think I love you. Is this love, Tristan? I never imagined I'd know it for myself. My heart...It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me anymore. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no fits. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine."

Eeeeeeeeeee...sweetness!!!!

Tagged by Mawee...

1. Name of the person who made you laugh last night? Pokwang, Rufa Mae, Candy and Eugene
2. What were you doing at 0800? Eating ham and egg sandwich prepared by Beth. :-)
3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago? Uploading pics from last Saturday's gimmick.
4. What happened to you in 2006? Nothing major. Just got hospitalized for a night.
5. What was the last thing you said out loud? to Guia: Ayaw mo kumain? Wag mo to kunin. hehe
6. How many beverages did you have today? Two. (Water and Coffee)
7. What color is your hairbrush? Black.
8. What was the last thing you paid for? My drink last Saturday night.
9. Where were you last night? Airport.
10. What color is your front door? Brown.
11. Where do you keep your change? In my wallet.
12. What the weather like today? Cloudy.
13. What's the best ice cream flavor? Strawberry and vanilla.
14. What excited you? Now? Bangkok. Yipee!!!
15. Do you want to cut your hair? No, there's nothing left to cut.
16. Are you over the age of 25? No. bwahahahaha
17. Do you talk a lot? Yes. hehe
18. Do you watch the O.C.? Only when I catch it on TV.
19. Do you know anyone named Steven? No.
20. Do you make up your own words? Sometimes, pag naglalambing at nahihiya. hehe
21. Are you a jealous person? Yes.
22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'A'. Anna
23. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'K'. Kathy
24. Who's the first person on your received call list? Paolo.
25. What does the last text message you received say? Cancelling tonight's dinner.
26. Do you chew your straw? No.
27. Do you have curly hair? Newp. Straight na straight.
28. Who's the rudest person in your life? Hhhmm...no one.
29. What was the last thing you ate? Banana.
30. Will you get married in the future? If God permits.
31. Where's the next place you're going to? Filing room, to sleep.
32. What's the best movie you've seen in the past 2 weeks? I only had two, Apat Dapat-Dapat Apat and Stardust. I'd go for Stardust. bwahahaha
34. When was the last time you did the dishes? A long long time ago. hahahaha
35. Are you currently depressed? No.
36. Did you cry today? No.
37. Why did you answer this? Bored.
38. Tag 5 people who would do this survey. Arle, Dyosa, Aileen and whoever wants to be tagged.

I don't have time to update my blog so will just post some pics of what's keeping my world spinning. So many happenings, ergo sooooooooooooo little time to sleep.

Game 1 of the UAAP Finals
Highlight: DLSU won by 1 pt.!!!

Post game drinks with Friends
Highlight: Sharing of favorite movie titles

McDonald's Birthday Party with OGC peeps

Highlight: "Ngayon lang ako nakapag-party sa Jollibee."

Des' birthday get together
Highlight: Hot seat!

Sat Night @ Gweilos

Highlights: Secret Club and I've Never...Interesting!

Ziggy's Birthday @ Bounce

HIGHLIGHT: We watched the UAAP finals during the party. hehehe

Lucy's party @ Piedra

Highlight: Fun fun fun...

My dear officemates have organized a party for us, September celebrants. And guess what? It's a children's party! Hehehe...

The 21st of September

YDWTL @ 30 (Photo by James)

Ritchie welcoming the big 3 - 0

Animo La Salle!

work work work...

My last weekend was eventful. I want to tell you about it in detail, but I have 180 unread e-mails, 3 loan agreements to format and circulate, 1 mission travel to arrange and 4 bosses to assist. Talk about bunching huh?!

I also haven't recovered from lack of sleep. For the past few days, my sleeping hours range from 4-5 hours per day. My eye bags are looming, darker than ever. Top it with mucus-filled throat and congested nasal.

Haven't played badminton for two weeks. Hence, a bigger tummy and arms.

I will talk to you again. But first, I have to get rid of all these. Ciao!

ps. My french boss came to visit yesterday and my gaaadddd, I look like hell!

Got this from RR. Inggit ako so I'll post mine. hehe

...a hot coffee on a cold morning.
...a 15-minute drive to work.
...dreaming about Sabrina.
...cooking for my family.
...lazing in the beach while listening to good music.
...a good book.
...heckling with HB crew.
...reading friends' blogs.
...catching up with old friends.
...reminiscing blunders of friends over booze.
...watching an exciting badminton match.
...a good conversation.
...Kuya's funny antics.
...knowing you've done the right thing, no matter how difficult it was.
...a flowering plant you nurtured for a long time.
..."I love you, Anak" from Dade.
...hearing your favorite song on the radio.
...a wish come true.
...driving Dade to the bus station.
...seeing people happy because of a good deed you've done for them.
...the look on a child's face after opening a present.
...finding 100 peso bill in your old pants' pocket when you're out of cash.
...helping someone realize her dream.
...lending your umbrella to a colleague who's stranded.
...knowing that someone thinks of you.
...knowing someone misses you.
...having someone open the door for you when your hands are full.
...a friend who keeps you company when you're stranded.
...endless chatting with your bestfriend.
...an all-nighter.
...a day of sleep.
...a surprise visit.
...a sweet dream.
...a warm hug.
...another year to live.
...another year to explore places, meet new people and enjoy life.

"And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years."
-Abraham Lincoln

Things that are living in the pockets of your bag, jeans or jacket: travel and pay checks, old cigarette pack that just looks interesting, sugar lumps and all the stuff that has found home in your pockets. They are all the treasures our project is looking for! Our goal is not only bring all this objects into light but show the owner of them.

Been listening to this song over and over again. Love it even though it doesn't have any meaning to me. I just love listening to it.

After All
by: Peter Cetera and Cher


Well, here we are again
I guess it must be fate
We've tried it on our own
But deep inside we've known
We'd be back to set things straight
I still remember when
Your kiss was so brand new
Every memory repeats
Every step I take retreats
Every journey always brings me back to you

After All the stops and starts
We keep coming back to these two hearts
Two angels who've been rescued from the fall
After All that we've been through
It all comes down to me and you
I guess it's meant to be
Forever you and me, After All

When love is truly right
(This time it's truly right)
It lives from year to year
It changes as it goes
Oh, and on the way it grows
But it never disappears

After All the stops and starts
We keep coming back to these two hearts
Two angels who've been rescued from the fall
After All that we've been through
It all comes down to me and you
I guess it's meant to be
Forever you and me, After All
Always just beyond my touch
You know I needed you so much
After All, what else is livin' for?

After All the stops and starts
We keep coming back to these two hearts
Two angels who've been rescued from the fall
After All that we've been through
It all comes down to me and you
I guess it's meant to be
Forever you and me, After All

Someone wanted to sneak into my workstation last night hoping to leave this for me ...

Unfortunately, I worked late last night. The surprise that was supposed to be for me, backfired. It contained this cute creature...

Thanks to you. Now, I am officially a mouse collector (only the cute ones okay!?). hehehe

WARNING: EMO MODE SWITCHED ON

I'm nearing the end of my calendar days. In a few days, I'll be 29. When that day comes, I know I will receive greetings from friends, relatives and even acquaintances. Alongside these greetings are questions about my personal life and plans of marriage, worries about my ovary and how my biological clock is catching up on me. On that day, please keep these worries to yourself and let me celebrate adulthood worry-free. I am 29, I believe I have heard all that and I don't need to be reminded of them yet again.

But if you're really wondering why I haven't jumped into the bandwagon, or at the very least why I'm not in a serious relationship, allow me to feed your curious mind. (I'm after your boyfriend or husband. Mwahahahaha...Kidding!) The answer is pretty simple: I'm holding out for THE ONE. Of course, I've dated quite a few. But none of them has given that magical feeling or had me curling up cause I had butterflies in my stomach. Nor has anyone made me say YES, without a doubt, without questions.

I don't want to settle. Primarily because I know what I'm capable of doing when I'm not 100% with a guy. I don't want to be with a so-so guy because I want someone who rocks my world. Someone who makes me incredibly and undeniably happy. Someone I can live without but wouldn't want to. Someone who would always want to sit beside me because he always wants to stay close to me. And until I find the person that makes me smile up to my third molar, I will not wear that white dress. Understood?!

Sure I miss being with someone. But if it were merely for the sake of having someone to go with you to your friend's wedding, or to pick you up after a night of partying with girlfriends, or to bring you to your badminton game, and all other perks - I would not be wasting my time, nor the poor guy's time and effort.

I'm holding out for The One. I don't care if I'm 35 or 50. Yes the clock is ticking, and so what? Let it tick...until it freakin' breaks!

It's mom's birthday today. She would have been 57.

Loving, caring, compassionate. Full of wisdom. She taught me to explore. She taught me to try things, make decisions on my own. And if I fall, I have to get up and move on. She said it's in falling that we learn life's lessons.

I have a magnetic white board in my workstation. It serves as a locator for my bosses whenever I'm not around. It's also meant for them and others to leave important messages if they come and I'm out. This morning, I found this:

He/She was here...But I don't have a freakin' idea who he/she is. Could this be the doing of the girl they see around 8th floor? hhhmmmm...